i was

I would be there once again
We'd sit watching among the dark
You'd look into me like so many times
I never could hide (as if I wanted to)

Morning light shows me your face
Already staring at mine, waiting
I could never sleep, those nights
Conscious of your warmth flowing over me

So long ago, no way back now
I've let you slip away one too many times
You've moved on, I've walked in place
And made more mistakes than ever

Life made sense, even with the pain
You were there to save me from it all
But, even with you, I had it all wrong:
"I am not what is going to make your life better."

Oh.
Then...what is?

aftermath

My eyes are burning
Reminders of your passing
"It's not like I'm dead"
Well it is to me
And you'd have it
No other way

How do we start over
It's obvious I don't matter
Everything and everyday
Was all just lies anyway

I can only endure so much
The weight of nothingness
Growing as we speak

To say I don't care
would be like saying you do

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Stretching outward
Until I can't see myself
Maybe this is easier
Unfocused at last
So many things
To think about
If I look away
I will diffuse

And there's nothing keeping me here