decibel

I want to scream into your eyes
deafen your sight
hold you so you can't look away

I want to tear apart my throat
pour myself out
so you can read what I can't speak

I want to be your last step
instead of your first
your end
rather than
your means

part 2

context and relevance

are these good or bad terms?

has "enough time passed" to change anything?

or do you lie yourself to sleep at night?


an apology of sorts

I'm sorry I'm not happy enough for you

since that is all that matters

am I bringing you down? have I ruined your day?

how rude of me.

remind me again how to act when this is reversed

oh, wait

that might ruin my coffee optimism

justdealwithitmoveonthingswillgetbetter(still?)

meaning

significance

don't even try

the type of person who

why do I continually fall in love with women who "love" everyone

would really like to know

"then I never will again"

don't ever say you will not do something conditional and when the condition arises not abide by your own statement

not recent but always relevant

We are the children of children; not knowing what to tell us, they regurgitate the hollow fallacies that were spoon-fed to them by their radiation democracy parents.
The answers must come from the sky, since death arrived correspondingly.

with every reason

nothing is worse than unequal love

I gave everything and you wanted nothing

or so you said

I was afraid of who I was and you said you loved all of me

or so you said

you have ruined me more than I thought possible

just fucking leave me here

like you promised not to do

after everything despite everything

I misshatelove you more than ever

or not

seeing and ignoring

hearing without listening

promising without meaning

assuming without asking

these are a few of my favorite things