the division and the distance

"in writing, the point is not to manifest or exalt the act of writing, nor is it to pin a subject within language; it is rather a question of creating a space into which the writing subject constantly disappears."

"the work, which once had the duty of providing immortality, now possesses the right to kill, to be its author's murderer."

"what does it matter who is speaking?"

-foucault

morals, ethics and other fallacies

on morals:
what is "right" vs. what is "not currently socially acceptable"

on ethics:
instincts have been sublimated into carpal tunnel

on norms:
it's ok. I didn't want to experience anything new, either

on deserving:
nobody does

on ubiquity:
if only

automatic updates

I feel like I'm 20 years older than I really am

pointless to sleep

pointless to wake up

everything is a disappointment and you are my validity

how very fair of you

where were you when the situation was reversed
I guess that makes us even, now
there is always something left to lose

collection

no one lives up to their own ideologies

like cleaning out a dead man's house
handing out memories, oblivious
I claim this I claim that that's mine
you were all waiting for this

delusion
one deed reverses another
realization
nothing erases anything

the phrases we grew up thinking meant everything mean nothing
every statement is a hollow imitation of an idea which we know nothing of
nothing is untouchable and everything is a lie

endings

everything will last forever

why do you not want to [insert temporary state of existence here]

don't you want to stay exactly where you are

come on everyone else is doing it

there has to be something more than this

if concepts such as "deserve" existed

some day your flimsy little world will come crashing down around you.
and I hope you feel every last second of it
and realize everything


everything.

the inevitability of relevance and its consequences

laughingatthelossofeverythingbecauseitkeepsyoufromcryinguntilyoulookdownlookdownoxygenintrinsictothisstartingagainneverstoppedcovereverythingseenothinglooknowhereexpectnothinggetnothing

but my life is not that bad.

impressionist

act a certain way long enough
and people expect the same
follow advice (directions)
give thanks (appeasement)
change for the better (lie)
you want optimism
yet are used to depression
this is just a show
we don't take requests

been meaning to

(from december 7th)

and you walk around and try to look into the faces
that quickly look away rather than meet your eyes
everyone knows it and no one knows it
Buy. Sell. Trade.
anything but happiness.
anything but meaning.

nothing is loud enough

complex. or not.

everyone wants to have their cake
and eat it too

everyone

I just want something new

this is all I want

everything
and
nothing