the opposite of

denial of self trapped within commodity
a sickle-cell investment history
catering to the bulimic beauty
every morbid gain a moment of depreciation

you will have none of this and you could care less

cyclical acceptance

that half-awake dreaming state (oscillating ambiance close by)
reminded of a story I wanted to tell him, something he'd laugh at
shake my head awake, going to tell him before I forget

realize without moving that he's gone
something breaks and I slip a little lower
it's the perfect day and he'll never see it