invalidated

cycling through so many emotions in such a short time that it's impossible to decide which one I should believe in which one is right which one matters and I guess I'm ok I'm holding up I'm distracting I'm distraction I'm drinking I'm dying I'm living I'm lying no this isn't anything this isn't what I feel this isn't what I think what I think doesn't matter what I feel doesn't matter what I know is a lie this isn't you this isn't me can't be me can't be you can't be us please let it be me